SEVENTEEN!

Today, I'm so gonna have fun! And thank you to all the people who greeted me and are planning to greet me lol. Believe it or not, I really feel so extra special today than last year. My uncle bought me a cake yesterday and I'm not allowed to see it until later this evening. I love cakes, fyi. I woke up this morning with 5 text messages and 3 missed calls on my phone. 4 of them wishing me and one of it, as usual, you should know it. I would really appreciate it if he would just shut up and let me live my life. A person only realises his mistakes when you are already nowhere near him, nowhere in his sight anymore. Only when he realised everything what you had been wanting him to realise when you were with him.

Well, drop the subject, I should not brag about all that crap. I've been recieving loads of phone calls at home and my cellphone. Heee. Thank you for remembering me, from the bottom of my little heart, I just want to thank you all the people who made me, made my life worthwhile and if I mention you guys now, I'm afraid that there'll be no space to type. There's just so many of you who believes, loves and cares for me. However, I also believed that there are number of people who wants nothing but to see me break down and empty. And yea, I'm talking about you. Whoever hater you are, frankly, find some happy life and piss off. PISS! Hehe.

Uncle woke me up at 8am. First one to greet me at the day, but, I recieved messages during exactly midnight too. Many many hugs.

I don't need gifts, lovies . Your warm words, full of sincerity, are the most important gift I can ever recieve on this day. Many many hugs.

Thank you to all my friends, and I'm talking about real friends, because no matter how stupid I had been, they're always there for me.

Mariel and I wanted to go clubbing so badly, but only finding out a little later that it only opens every friday for our age. ;S Were like so disappointed. Augh.

BUT,,

I had so much good time last night. In fact, yesterday! I met Mariel, Leandro at Yishun mrt at about 4.15. Did and talked so much of silly things. Leandro was so effing hillarious. I wonder when was the last time I laughed so hard. We went to Arab Street cuz Mariel wanted to check the vintage clothes. But, so far, we ended up window shopping instead. And of course we were there til 6.25. At around 7pm, we met Danial and Amirul. They broke their fast with us at Seoul Garden. Ohmygod, Mariel was so clumsy that everything she touches, she drops. Same with Papa Danial luh lol. They're so compatible and in fact tmr's their 2nd anniversary! She's having dinner with Dan's family tmr. Awww;) Danial and Leandro ate a lot, oh and Mariel too. But Amirul and I didn't cuz we were both having a headache. Darn. Both of us didn't even eat a plate of food. Twas like we wasted our cash. lol. Leandro was the meat guy, full of proteins and muscles. :) lmfao. They camwhored. We camwhored cuz Danial brought along his beloved camera. Hee, left there at 9.15. Hugged mariel and kissed goodbye to everyone. Except Amirul and I took the same route. So he sent me home instead. I mean, not home, just at BP lol.

ADVANCE HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO ME on Sunday and HAPYY 18th BIRTHDAY TO LOVELY MARNIAH. I miss you na, babae!

Sorry Howard.

I'm not really interested with relationships now. I'm sorry for lying, I'm not attached. Byebye~

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful Stop me and steal my breath And emeralds from mountains thrust towards the skyNever revealing their depth
And tell me that we belong together Dress it up with the trappings of love I’ll be captivated, I’ll hang from your lipsInstead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
And I’ll be your cryin’ shoulder I’ll be love’s suicide I’ll be better when I’m olderI’ll be the greatest fan of your life
And rain falls angry on the tin roofAs we lie awake in my bedYou’re my survival, you’re my living proofMy love is alive and not dead
So tell me that we belong togetherDress it up with the trappings of loveI’ll be captivated, I’ll hang from your lipsInstead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
And I’ll be your cryin’ shoulder I’ll be love’s suicideI’ll be better when I’m olderI’ll be the greatest fan of your life
And I’ve dropped out, I’ve burned upI fought my way back from the deadI’ve tuned in, I’ve turned onRemembered the things that you said
And I’ll be your your cryin’ shoulderI’ll be love’s suicideI’ll be better when I’m olderI’ll be the greatest fan of your-
I’ll be your cryin’ shoulder I’ll be love’s suicideI’ll be better when I’m olderI’ll be the greatest fan of your life
The greatest fan of your whole life

Two days back, I spent the day with my beloved girlfriend, Fitri. I was actually suppose to meet Mariel, but I didn't cuz she thought I was with a guy named Fitri lol. Then, we talked on the phone, we were like laughing so hard, that she misinterpreted things, haha. & omg, Fitri dragged me to walk from Fajar Sec. to lot 1. Damn that lady. But, however, I really enjoyed things with her. She toured me about her childhood past. lol. and told me beautiful stories about her life even though my leg really hurts. I'm really thankful to have her cuz she's always been there with me through my tough times. We left fajar at 1.05 and reached lot 1 at 2pm. Well, she's so possesive about ID photo. lol. I never knew that! luaghs* Well, Mariel love, I'm so so sorry if I made you think she's a guy in any way. Haha, i miss you, hoping to see you on Thursday with the rest! Mwaaahugs. That day itself, I did a lot of texting with my friends to keep myself occupied from a _ _ _ _ _ _ _. First and foremost, I'm so so glad that Rizal finally patched up with his Sheena. I'm so so thankful, cuz I don't want the lady to think of something more about us when he's like my French mate and buddy sice secondary two lol. I mean I admit, he had liked me but never courted me. I already made things so clear to him and i'm so happy that he understands that. Phew, so please, enjoy your relationship. Enjoy Poly life and leave me alone. My peace. hah, and BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the love of my life, Kristel for turning m18. and to AMIRUL for turning 16! And advance to lovely MARNIAH, ME and MALINI. HEEEE, I'm so tuning older now, 17.:) Best~

Yes, it's painful.

Dahil mahal, mahal na mahal kita, gagawin ko ang lahat pangako mo lang di ako iiwan. Dahil mahal.. Mahal na mahal kita.